Pondering… Deep into thoughts!

I am on my night shift again… got the time in the whole world… jus waiting for the mins and secs to tick by at their slowest pace.

I am thinking whether is it worth it putting in so much effort into what i am doing now at the expense of all other aspects of my life. I literally put aside everything except my family for my career. This is a heavy investment and i can’t effort to lose… I know i will be down into total depression if i fail in my career. But i kept telling myself that  if i put in my best … will then the best come back to me.

I came to learn that where one wants to be don’t solely relies on one self, but where the others want you to be… quite sad isn’t it… but that’s reality.. and lets face it. There are so many things that i learnt since i started working… put the technical aspects aside… i think the most valuable thing i learn is how to survive in this cruel and pratical world. 

 All in all, i just hope that the efforst that i put it don’t go to waste…  and i have always and still belief that one reaps what he sows… so lets just see… the answer will emerge as the times go by…

-Wilx-

Night Shift

Life can never get more boring than this. The time now is 0343hrs and i am 3hrs 15 mins away to the end of my shift. I am now tying this blog from my front desk comp in the hotel. Doing night shift alone is BORING, haha…

 Life is still so much the same as a month ago, nothing else but work and work… Colleagues in the hotel come and go, this reminds me that almost everything in this world is impermanace… and no individual is indispensable. The world still revolves without you, and the sun will still rise at your absence. I got my confirmation last week, and i am one of the only 3 that remains from the pre opening team.

I wanna go Taiwan end of this yr.. 2 things are in the way.. money & time.. BUT.. i will get them sorted out as i dread for a short getaway…

 I think i will stop here.. its 0400hrs now and need to get back to my night audit…

~Wilx~

A new lease in life!!

My life had all been about work, nothing else. The hotel finally turned live on 12th september. Learnt many new things and met many people. I felt myself improving yet many more things awaiting for me. Politics are coming thick and fast at my workplace, i tried my best to be neutral but often being dragged into it, the feeling is just like a drowning man trying to surface himself, but whenever he managed a grasp of air, he is being dragged into into water all over again.

Mental and physical stress is immense, had been working ridiculous long hours as there is short of staff and colleagues on MCs. Had to work a one man shift at times which can be real shitty. Mentally it is demanding as well, so many new things to absorb and changes is ever coming, not forgetting the darn politics which i couldn’t get off my back. However, despite all the complains and disgrunt, i love my job, I love what i am doing just that how much more my brain and physic can take.

Gave a serious thought about life recently, things that i have done, right or wrong. I think the only way is to accept and get on with it as there is no way i can relive it. I am constantly reminding myself, nothing else is more important than my career. I shan’t stop and look back, instead i will sprint forward and head for my goals. My deepest apologies to all that i have offended or hurt in the past and my sincere thanks to all who have taught and help me. Perhaps the old Wilson is gone, and the new one here no longer live for others but for himself and his love ones.

Success is the only path and failure will not be condoned.

~Wilx~

 

For you: Lady Priss 

Another one!! 

 

Your Happiness Is All I can Ask For!!

Tml is the big day for my hotel, after all the intensive preparation for the past couple of months, she is set to open it’s doors. Expectations are high, worries come with it. I will do my best and pray for it’s success.

Tml is my birthday as well, but it doesn’t seems so significant to me as it use to be. Don’t get me wrong, i am happy with my life now. It’s just that seeing her being happy means more than anything else, my happiness comes with hers. People tends to tell me recently that i smile more than i used to, this is because she bestowed it upon me. Images of her smile, her laughter lingers vividly in my mind, casting away my sorrows and unhappiness.

However, my confidence in relationship is still my greatest obstacle, my fear of pain is still so immense. My frens told me that it is uncalled for, but something deep within me stop myself from taking a step further. Yes it is contradicting, and yes it is a dilemma. Isn’t that part and parcel of pathetic human lives. haha… Enjoy it while you can…

Your Laughter makes my Day!!

~Wilx~

Random Thoughts!

Past are memories which i wish to forget. Future are thoughts which i fear…

Happiness is wat you once gave me, with only sorrows remain. Memories that once brought happiness are left with tears rolling from my eyes.

Looking forward is my only option but with confidence perished.

With steps that i take.. i pray for yours to be safe. Awaiting for my own happiness,  while wishing upon the stars for yours to be blissed.

~Wilx~ The one who’s once your guardian angel!!

I feel you by my side!

Sorry for not being able to blog for such a long time. Had been real busy with work. Hardly had time for myself, needless to say blogging.

 3 weeks since i started work, alot of things that i need to pick up and also plenty of stuff for me to do. But i can say that i love my job, i love the industry. I can forsee that i will be even more busy when the hotel officially opens on the 12th of september.

 That’s for work, my private life is a stalemate due to my work. My main focus is my career, everything else can wait. Moreover i have lost all confidence in relationships. haha

I shall proof my worth in the hotel industry,  leaving traces of success with every step i take. ~wilx~

~~Leaving you guys with a gothic pic for gothic lovers~~

Tiring!

Just got home from YBC’s anniversary celebration. Was out since friday afternoon, celebrated granny’s birthday on friday night at Teochew garden Chinese restaurant. Went to Niic’s place for drinking session after that. Haha, too tired to go into details, so let the pictures do the talking for me. Will be back to update more.

 My Beloved Family!

 Me and my parents!

Gothic hands- Wilx and Nat

 Drunkards- Wilx and Nat

So Cute! – Nat

~Wilx~

A penny of thoughts!

This entry will be quite dull, as i really have no idea what i am going to blog on. So i will just let it run as what comes to my mind.

Over the last week, i heard of many relationship problems from my friends. It kinda a affect me a little, at the very least it brings down my confidence in relationships. No matter what’s the outcome, someone tends to get hurt. Can love overcome everything?? I wonder.. For me, I fear the feeling of being hurt.. i fear the feeling of losing something.. the fear is so immese that perhaps refraining from it  is the best remedy afterall.

Maybe lets talk abit about myself.. Puting on a strong front and hiding all my emotions seems to be natural born forte in me. Some may say its a good thing, others think otherwise..  i can’t explain many things within myself, i don’t even seem to understand myself at times… haha So relatives and friends who thinks you know me well enough, sorry but i beg to differ. 

Sometimes, i do long for someone who really understand me, someone who can tell me who and what kinda person i am.. and perhaps only this someone can revive my confidence in this word “LOVE”!

~Awaiting for my Guardian Angel~ Wilx

What a Day!

Had a rather long day today, met up with Phimol, Pattra, Niic & GF at around noon for movie. Caught my wife is a gangster 3, its a damn lame show that don’t really worth the money. Went shopping after that, i just can’t understand why are there so many ppl in town on the weekends, got a tee though. haha We shop from around 1530 to about 2200. Went to lau pa sat for supper after that.. haha Nice food, great company accompanied by a jar of beer, wat else more can i ask for. Chilled at the bus stop for around an hour after that before heading home.. not forgetting to take some photos too.. haha tts all for now, kinda shagged. Therefore, i shall stop here.

Phimol & Wilx

 Nat & Wilx ( I just like it Blured)

 Sneakers With Wilx

My New Sneakers ( Starting to Love Em!)

 Nat & Wilx Once Again! ( Simply Love This Pic) 

Let The picture do the Talking!

~Wilx~

Farewell My Shoes With A lesson Learnt!

It was a disastrous first half of the day for me. Things wasn’t right from the minute i woke up. Everything i did tends to be accompanied by some kind of obstacles, but i didn’t really bother about it as i told myself that it’s just a normal waking up on the wrong side of  bed thingy.. Things went from bad to worse when i was about to leave my house heading for the gym. I could not find my shoes which i left outside, i have always left my shoes outside ever since i shifted here like a decade ago. I went high and low searching frantically at every single possible spot at home hopping that it will appear somewhere. Only after searching for a good 20mins then i was convinced that some idiotic bastard son of a bitch stole my shoes. In the end,  i have to settle with my NS running shoes which are damn old & filthy. After this incident, I swear to myself that i will never leave my shoes outside ever again. Arhz…

The second half of the day was much better, went to gym and ya.. it was kinda fulfilling workout.. and i must say cali gym orchard is a freaking good place to work out. Even went for suana before i wash up and proceed to orchard MRT to meet up with YP & Niic. I dragged them down to acc me buy shoes, as no way i am gonna wear that pair of terrible looking running shoes out again. haha well, I got my shoes from everlast and a t-shirt from topman. Damn niic got the skinny which he long wanted, and kept on bragging about it ever since.. YP got her sweater as well, both from Zara. Hey.. weren’t  i suppose to be the one doing the shopping.. but well.. haha

So i guess the day ended not as bad as how it started.. so ya.. all i hope for is a better tml with a brand new beginning.

Forget about yesterday, looking forward to tml!! ~WilX~